running away

   Posted by: liz   in health, running

i am terrified of sharks and deep water. you’ll never see me on a cruise ship. i’m scared of spiders, but that is a fear you kind of have to deal with when you live in a rural area. the palm-sized garden spiders make my heart-rate skyrocket, but at least i know they won’t kill me.

i used to be afraid of running. in a way, i still am. why would i want to go through something so uncomfortable, so debilatating, by choice? i shook with fear on the high school P.E. Run the Mile day. i started to run it, and after a quarter of a lap, my lungs would burn, and my legs would hurt. i gave up and walked most of it because i hated not being able to breathe. since high school, i’ve been “power walking” regularly, so at least my legs are used to getting some form of exercise. i’m thankful for this since when i began running a few weeks ago, my legs are no worse for the wear. my knees and ankles are a different story, however.

i turned 38 this year, inching ever so closer to the big 4-0. i finally decided it was time to face my fear of running. i’m currently in a stare-down contest with running. sometimes i feel as though i’m winning, and other times, i want to “blink” so badly and just give in. i keep on going for a few reasons:

1/ i feel fantastic at the end of a run. it’s only taken three weeks of running, but my “breathing recovery” has shortened immensely. i no longer feel shakey or that i just want to fall on the ground in a heap of long-winded breaths. i feel on top of the world post-run now and i dont’ want to lose that feeling. during the run, i don’t feel so good, but i keep thinking about how i’m going to feel when i’m done.

2/ i don’t want the good money (that could have easily gone towards groceries) we just spent on my new running shoes to go to waste. i want to wear them out and need a new pair in six months. also, i bought the new pair of running shoes to encourage me to run more, and to start running as correctly as possible from the get-go.

3/ i’m wondering if perhaps running throughout the winter will keep me from getting depressed again.

i’m putting this new hobby “out there” to the blog world and on facebook to keep me accountable. if i blog about it, i’ll keep up with it. if i talk about my running issues, i might get great advice from people reading the blog or my facebook page. i’m encouraged and inspired by other new runners’ blogs, so hopefully, i can be an encouragement to someone else beginning to run again.

so…who’s running away with me?

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6 comments so far


Pant, pant, gasp. No, I’m not running with you. I’m 20 years ahead of you and would never be able to keep up.

But I’m trying to add more running to my daily walk. S-L-O-W running, but running. My shoes of choice? Vibram Five Fingers.

June 15th, 2011 at 11:02 am

Gosh, I hear you on #1 & #3. Not running for me, but circuit training . . . still, the endorphin rush is the reason to do it . . . that and that it DOES beat back depression, at least for me.

June 15th, 2011 at 7:58 pm

Zumba is my running…although I wasn’t ever afraid of Zumba b/c dance is a comfortable thing for me…but regularly going to a gym & exercising is NOT. Something about it knots my stomach.
But I’m still going once a week. :-P
GO YOU!!!!!

June 16th, 2011 at 12:14 am

linda – do you love running in them? my friend wants to try them out because she loves running barefoot!

June 16th, 2011 at 8:15 pm

What I do can hardly be called running — no more than a mile at a time, and very slow — but yes, I love running in them. I don’t know whether it’s psychological or due to the weight difference, but regular shoes seem to drag me down. Also, my gait feels better with the Vibrams.

But if she’s used to running barefoot, even that little shoe will probably feel confining. Much nicer for hot pavement or rocky terrain, though. Or the crushed shell track on which I run. Or whatever you’d call my locomotion.

June 16th, 2011 at 9:09 pm
Samantha French

oh. my. gosh. I too am terrified of sharks! I used to hate swimming in my parents’ in-ground swimming pool by myself at night because as soon as I’d close my eyes and go underwater, my imagination would get the best of me!! I used to run cross country and track in high school… but that was maaany years ago. :)

June 16th, 2011 at 9:53 pm

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